When I sit around and think about all the things I could be doing with my life , a lot comes to mind. But there is one thing that I am sure of. I’ve been working hard for us to have a successful future together. And I’ll keep working as hard as I have to just to make it all happen. Even if we have to struggle for a while. I’ve never wanted somebody in my life as much as I want you. I want to be there every morning when you wake up. I want to be there at any given moment when you might need me, even if it’s just a shoulder to cry on. Baby, I’m all yours. There is nothing in this world that could change that. I know you say that you never know what’s going to happen, yes you’re correct. But at the same time we have the ability to change any given situation if we have the determination to make this work. Sure there may be times where one of us has the opportunity to be unfaithful, but if you truly don’t want to be, you won’t allow something like that to happen. And I never have those intentions. I have never been unfaithful and I’m never going to start. I am going to keep you in my life for as long as I am able to. The only thing that will make me leave is you saying you don’t want to be together any more. But I will not leave without a fight. I’m not one to give up something I am deeply passionate about.

Lately things have been a little complicated due to me being a dumbass. But we will get past these little bumps and make it another day. I am still adjusting to being in a serious relationship. Doing things differently, breaking my old ways. Keeping myself motivated to keep us together from my end. I want to be the man you know I am. I have goals that I still need to achieve and they will happen in time. I’m not prefect, I will slip up from time to time. I just need you to keep my head on straight, no matter how frustrating it may become.

We are like the universe. Just two particles that were floating around aimlessly. We just so happened to bump into each other one day, and thankfully there was enough dark matter to hold us together. Hopefully it’s cold dark matter, so we can grow into a galaxy. Becoming one within each other, never separating. Having a long future ahead of us. We may have other particles bump into us along the way, making us stronger as an ever changing galaxy. One day we will create planets within our galaxy and those planets will grow and evolve to have their own environment.

Having an ever lasting love for each other, getting through everything together no matter how difficult it may be. Being happy, not all the time, but making it through the tunnel to see the light. Starting a family and watching our family grow. These are the only things I ask for. I just want you to be mine for as long as you can stand to be.

I love you baby, you are the moon of my life.

~Him.

I have never been so upset with myself. Even the guy at work said he could tell that I’m depressed. I said something tonight that really hurt her, emotionally and her self esteem. It was nothing that I intended to be taken the way it was but I’m not trying to justify myself. Regardless of her telling me to say it or not I shouldn’t have said it. I feel like a piece of shit because of it too. I never wanted to hurt her or make her cry. Knowing that I caused that tore a hole in me. I can’t believe how stupid I am. I know that I’ll be spending a while making up for my mistake.

I love her in so many ways it’s unexplainable. Every tiny detail about her body is perfect to me, flawless like a goddess. She doesn’t see it in herself but lord I do. I am engulfed in her, her personality and her emotions. I’ve never had another person care for me the way she does. I know that she would do absolutely everything just to put a smile on my face, and I would do the same for her. She keeps me strong, motivated, and focused on what I want. She’s the one for me.

I could never stray away from her. There isn’t another person on this planet that could do the things she does for me. No matter how lonely I feel at times, I know that she is still there. I have hope for our future to grow into something greater than we are now. That is something I’ve never had before.

Before she came into my life I felt worthless, ashamed, and like my life had no meaning. The people I had been with in the past weren’t really there for me. They just liked what being with me would represent, nothing I should have ever cared for. Now that I have her in my life I can feel appreciated, she isn’t worried about how people feel about us being together. I found the person that wants me for who I am, all of me. All of my secrets, my past, present, and future, she accepts it all. I’ll never find this kind of love again. That is why I do everything I can to let her know that she is appreciated and respected.

Thank you for everything baby, I’m sorry for what I said earlier. I’ll leave it in the past now, I just wanted to vent a little bit. I love you more than anything you could ever imagine. I hope that you’re sleeping well and that you get a good nights rest.

You’re the moon of my life.

~Him.

You are the greatest woman I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. I am more than happy that I get to call you mine. I have never felt this way about anyone ever before. I can only hope that you feel the same as I do. You’re smile, your laugh, your “look of death”, it all puts a huge smile on my face. There isn’t one single thing about you that I’m not absolutely infatuated in. All of the things that you hate or dislike about yourself, I love them. Every single last insecurity you have, I’m going to help you be secure about. I’m not here to tear you down, I’m here to build you up. To put all the pieces back together. All the things that people in the past have done to make you feel less of who you are, I’m going to fix that.

There is no reason that a woman as beautiful and incredible such as yourself should ever feel bad or insecure about yourself as a whole. Every single millimeter of your body is perfection in my eyes. Not one single flaw stands out. And on top of how gorgeous you are, your personality is just as beautiful as your blue eyes.

I love you so much, you have no idea how much you mean to me. Our relationship is the most valuable thing in my life. I can’t even bare the thought of me losing you. So lets make sure that never happens.

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~Him

Happy valentines day baby, I love you :)


~Him

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After the very intense night I’ve had at work I’ve settled down, and have been thinking of her a lot. Like usual, she’s the only thing running through my head.

Right now she is sleeping. Which is a Good thing because she has been having a lot of issues sleeping lately. I’m not really sure why but I wish I knew how to fix it, or at least help her sleep better. Her health is really important to me, I want her to feel her best, everyday. I care so much about her I feel helpless some times because I’m so far away. Words can only help do much. And when her health is compromised there is nothing I can say to make her feel better physically.

I have about 3 weeks before I will be with her again. (hopefully ill find a job there quick.) Being together again is really important to me, and her. I’ve never needed somebody in my life as much as I need her. She keeps me strong at my weakest points. I have never been so grateful to have somebody on my life.

I knew the day she came to pick me up that this was destiny. The look on her face and in her eyes was something far beyond explanation. That very moment that I picked her up and held her outside marks house I knew that I was home. Nothing has ever felt better to me that I can remember. Something so simple as having the girl you love in your arms in the most astounding feelings on earth.

I have never been this thrilled to have such an incredible woman in my life before. Knowing that she is “mine” puts a smile on my face every day.

Lately we have been talking a lot on the phone with each other. Sometimes I don’t say anything, I’ll just sit there in silence. I value every second that we speak to each other, even if no words are being spoken. Just knowing she is on the other end of the phone keeps it all together and gives me the strength to keep going.

Good lord this couldn’t get better :)

I love you,
~Him

There are moments in time when I miss you more than normal. One of those times is right now. I have never wanted to be next to somebody so badly in my life. Being able to hold you right now would mean everything to me.

I know that you’re sleeping, I tried to call and wake you up. Just so I could hear your voice and feel at home. I would have felt bad for waking you up, but I need to hear you on the other end of the phone.

I know that me being asleep so long most likely put a million things in your head. I’m sorry that I possibly put you in a horrible mood. My door was locked for some reason and my dad couldn’t wake me up.

I woke up crying, which is something that has never happened before in my life. I didn’t think it was possible to miss somebody this much. I’m glad that I have you in my life and I have you to miss but I’m ready to be there already.

This will get easier soon. I love you baby, you’re my world, my stars, my universe.

~Him

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I just want you to know that everything will be alright. No matter what things will get better. You have to get through the horror and nightmares to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Being optimistic and positive, making sure that the small things don’t get you down. I know that sometimes it gets hard, missing each other all of the time. Wanting to be by your side at all hours of the day. But there is something that this distance can teach us. A valuable lesson, than no matter what, we will have each other in the end.

I am not going anywhere, nor do I ever plan on leaving your side. I may not be there physically, but emotionally I am always there. Any time of the day, you can count on me to be here for you. Even if its just to call and say that you miss me.

Don’t think that for two seconds that all of your doubts and worries haven’t crossed my mind a million times. I know how easy it is to over think things as well, because I do it too. Ive taught myself to stay positive, because I have to be strong for us. To make sure we make it another day. You’re not just another girl to me. I want this more than ever, and ill do everything to make it work. I need your help sometimes when I do have bad days, I need you to keep me sane, which you do.

There are a million in one ways that I want to show you how much I love you. And its going to take a lot of time, because I have a lot of love to give you. A billion years worth. So take it in stride :] I want you to be proud when you tell people that I am your boyfriend, because I am very proud to say that you are mine. I know that there may be times when you hate me, and just want me to leave you alone. And there may be times when I feel the same about you, even though I highly doubt it. It takes way to much to get me to that point.

I promise to do everything in my heart and soul to make sure you are always happy. And if there is ever a time that you feel unsatisfied and unhappy I want you to tell me. And explain to me why you feel this way, so I can fix it. I AM going to give you my all, for the rest of my life as long as you want me to.

You are the most incredible woman I have ever had the pleasure of falling in love with. Every time I think of you I smile and it makes my day better. I honestly couldn’t ask for a better girlfriend. There isn’t anything that you wouldn’t do for me if you could, I appreciate that so much. You deserve so much better than what I can give you. Thank you, for giving me the chance to show you the world :]

I love you.

~Him